It’s been three years. Three years I took a lifelong pledge to forever be indebted to the One who shed blood for me. It’s been three years since I chose to stop running and remain still.
Some of you know my story, if not, here is a summary of it. Three years ago on December 4th, 2013 I gave my life over to Christ after months of Him tugging on my heart. I was adopted at 10 years old and primarily raised in church but never coming to the full knowledge of who Christ was. Once night on my basement floor, I told God that I belonged to Him first. Since then, I have learned so much about Him, myself and those around me. I can ramble off a list of things I have learned these past three years but I am going to list five things I have learned from being a Christian.
There is Not a Relationship That Has Been Better to Me
That seems so easy to say right? “God is your friend” is the age old thing most Christians say to those who are lonely. It only takes you to experience that season of loneliness to understand that He truly is a friend. He makes me laugh, He’s chosen my outfits, He has accompanied me on dates. But not only has He been a friend, He has been everything I could have possibly needed. He’s been a parent when I’ve felt abandoned. He’s been a brother when I needed someone to vent to. He’s been my Husband when I needed more love than normal. He has been every role to me.
When God Has Told Me To Do Something, It Has Not Made Sense
From ending my relationship, to beginning this blog, to making me a leader among women; NONE of it has made sense to me. How can God make me a leader of women and I used to be the most insecure, hot mess woman around? But even at the time of it not making sense, it has truly been a test of my faith. If I say I love God, I should not be giving God my list of questions. Me: “Well God, how am I going to do that? I don’t have the skills. I don’t have the money, blah blah blah”. If you are in a season where God has instructed you to do something and it TOTALLY does not make sense, choose to TRUST Him. Choose to allow God to lead, especially if you call yourself a follower.
I’m Never Going To Look Like Someone Else
If I would have known this before I was saved, I would have saved myself a lot of trouble. So many times (especially us women), we play the comparison game. “I don’t study the bible like her.” “I can’t afford those luxury items like she can.” “Why am I not married yet?” So many times we look at what we have and compare it to someone else. That is not fair to ourselves and the God who created us. Has what He provided us with, not enough? There are going to friends, family and a man who will love us by just being ourselves (the God created version). There is no need to pretend to be someone else. Not only has comparison been something I stay clear of, so is conformity. “A Christian woman is supposed to look this this, dress like this, listen to this”. Enough is enough! There is not a cookie cutter Christian woman and if there was, I will never fit that mold. Death to be anything other than what God wants me to be.
Sin Will Never Cost The Same As Salvation
As I’ve matured in Christ, I have asked myself this question, “Is this worth an eternity separated from Christ?” I have used that in multiple scenarios, especially when sin in involved. Sin is what divides us from God and if we continue satisfying our temptations, we repeat the same cycle of repentance. Although God is just to forgive, what if we do not have the opportunity to ask for it? What if this sin cost us our life? Can I be real with y’all? Even as I’ve matured in Christ, there have been times where I have consistently and intentionally fallen into sin. Even in the midst of this, God has been merciful. Man, I don’t deserve it.
Godly Accountability Has Saved My Life
I love having two solid women I can call at anytime and ask to pray for me. I love having a group of women that can come with me to Christian poetry nights or slay an iPhone photo shoot but can also also give me Godly advice. I need people like that around me. You need people like that around you. Although none of these friendships have happened overnight, they all have happened organically. Having Godly accountability has been a life saver. These women have prayed me out of an spiritual attack, encouraged me through fasts and have loved me like God wants us all to be loved. I thank God for these women. If you are in a season of friendlessness, pray and ask God to send you Godly accountability at His time. He has done it for me, He’s fair to do it for you.
Thank you for reading! I pray it causes you to reflect on how God has been to you over the years.
Love and Light x