It’s been a while. Pray for your girl; a lot has gone on in life. Just a quick catch up on my end: I’ve finished my undergraduate degree! All praises to God because that was difficult. My friends and I have launched a ministry called “Culture to Kingdom”. This idea was given to my beautiful friend, Jasmin Monique and through her obedience, we were able to launch on October 15th. Through this ministry, we will share personal testimonies and answer any questions in order to share how you can be young, on fire for Christ and still live in this culture!
Lastly, I’m moving to Dallas, Texas! The Lord placed this on my heart over a year ago and through this blog, I will share my testimony on how this came about and any tips I have for those the Lord is leading out by faith.
How Did I Know?
The Lord revealed Texas to me after prayer in May or June of 2016. When He spoke to me, my heart dropped and I felt scared. As I’ve matured in Christ, the Lord has used that same feeling to push me out of my comfort zone so that I can do other tasks that seem “odd”. After prayer, I called a friend of mine and told her what I heard. She agreed that we should travel to Texas and search out areas for me to possibly live. The idea scared me and for months, I buried what God had spoken. It was until I was driving to a friend’s going away dinner and God spoke again. I knew I couldn’t deny that feeling twice. The very next morning, I prayed to the Lord and asked that He would show me If He wanted me to move to Texas. I went about my day at work and I received a phone call from a man with a southern accent. Being my normal nosey self, I asked where he was from. He told me he was from Texas. I laughed. Not only at myself but evidently at God. When I hung up the phone with the gentleman, I said to God in the midst of my laugh, “Ok, that’s funny. Can you send me another sign?” There’s usually a TV that sits behind me at work. Usually the volume is off or really low but this day it was on and the volume was louder than normal. There was a cooking show on and the people were talking about Texas Toast. From that day forward, I knew that God had a sense of humor.
The craziest sign that Lord used to assure me that I would be moving is through a moving truck. My two friends and I were driving to New York for a poetry event. I was talking to them about the move to Texas and I was telling the story of Noah and the Ark. When God gave Noah the instructions to build the Ark, he had to follow the specific measurements that God gave him in order to ensure that the Ark was durable enough to sustain the flood. I specifically mentioned that with this move, I have to follow the first instruction and then the Lord will reveal the others. A few minutes after I said this, my friend Stephanie said, “Does that truck say “Noah’s Ark Moving Truck”? There was a moving truck that pulled up next to us on the highway and we all sat in disbelief. How awesome is the Lord that we all were able to witness this?! Since then, the Lord has assured me that Texas is where I should be through much prayer and other signs.
Although God spoke Texas in 2016, I am not leaving until October 2017 and I am so happy that it happened this way! I knew I wanted to complete my education but if that was something I had to give up in the order for the Lord’s will to be done, I would have stopped. I prayed and through His peace, I felt confident that it was ok for me to finish and graduate in May. Through this past year, I had to really trust Him. I had to learn to pray differently, fast differently and get to know His voice. During this grooming season, I am not going to lie, it was a bit difficult. There would be times I would cry and have full blown panic attacks. I would cry out to God, “But why? Why do I have to go? I don’t know where I am going to live. I don’t have a job!” Although God did not supply me with answers, He did provide me with peace and assured me of His Word. He will never forsake me. He is always with me. He goes before me. I trusted Him.
I decided that I needed to leave October 25th, with or without a job. God had already spoken and I knew that it was my turn to make a move. I decided on this date based on a conversation with my friend, Shannon. She encouraged me by saying that my faith was being grown in this season of my life and I need to pick a date and stick to it. I waited for months for God to give confirmation of a date and He never did. I woke up one morning and thought to myself, “I wonder if I am going to regret this decision 20 years from now? I am waiting around to move. Is this really faith? Do I really trust God like I say I do?” A day later I went to work and my coworker gave a card to me. She said, “ I was in the store and I saw this card and thought of you.” I opened the card and the first line read , “20 years from now you are going to look back on this moment and regret all the decisions…” I was on the verge of tears at my desk. That was all the confirmation I needed. I had to move, it was not optional.
1.Seek God, Seek God, Seek God – My prayers had to become more intentional in order for me to understand the purpose behind all of this. I fasted and really waited on God. Jeremiah 29:13 says, “Seek me and you shall find me when you seek me with all of your heart.” There will be people that come along and try to question if it was God that you heard and will try to prevent you from being obedient. John 10:4-5 states that His sheep know His voice and they will not follow a stranger’s. Be confident in that!
2.Read your bible – This seems easy enough right? The bible has all the resources you would need in order to feel confident in moving to a new state. I read plenty of stories on faith and truly, without it, you cannot please God (Hebrews 11:6). I used to listen to sermons and write down scriptures that would help increase my faith (I lacked it LOL). I would write down the scriptures on notecards and whenever I felt a bit of worry rise up, I would look back on my notecards and remind myself of God’s word.
3. Find out where you’re living – In my case, I did not have any friends or family that lived in Dallas so I had to start from scratch. If you are able to rent a small apartment, please do that! I signed up for a site called www.roommates.com because I wanted a short term, roommate situation. The reason I did this is because in Dallas you either needed a co-signer or a job offer letter in order to rent an apartment. There are also hotels that have kitchens with longer terms and AirBnB is always an option as well.
4. Job Search – I am moving without a job. If that is your portion, do not be afraid. I want a job in social services and I trust that God will provide that for me. I did not want to settle for any job and be unhappy. I want to live every bit of my life with intention. If that is for you, DO NOT SETTLE! Indeed.com can be your best friend so make use of that resource. For non-profit jobs, Idealist.org will also work. I also have had several revisions to my resume by asking friends to give me their advice. A fresh set of eyes help!
5. Lastly, do not allow others to put their fears on to you – period. The Lord revealed to me that the things that people are afraid of themselves, they would relate it to my move. For example, people would mention my unemployment often. I understood that people were afraid for my financial security but above all, I serve a God who told me HE would supply my every need. I’ve also had people fearful concerning my safety, especially because I’ll be in a new city without any family close by. I’ve even had friends tell me to get a gun, haha! But nope, I cannot live in fear. That’s what the enemy wants me to do. He wants me to think of every uncertainty to distract me from the promise of God. Although people mean well, take their advice but use your Godly wisdom. Everything someone “thinks” is good for you, may not be good for you. They are not God. If they are fearful, tell them to make their requests known in prayer.
That’s all folks! I pray that this was insightful to you. If you have any questions, please write me an email and I will respond as the Lord leads. Prayerfully, I’ll be able to post updates on my Dallas journey!
Love and Light